5 Life Questions with @evakandra

5 Life Questions with @evakandra

Every day is different. Nature teaches me to accept this. Just like seasons in nature, the seasons in my cycle teach me to lean into the unfolding of each day as I would meet a lover. Searching for the beauty, deliciousness and the sacred in the mundane. That’s my poetic response.

My more practical response is I wake up early (again this shifts depending on what season I am in) prepare my meal; 30-40 minutes I have been aiming to eat breakie to heal my metabolism ~ a healthy sign of an active and vital metabolism is waking up with urges to eat, and whilst my local, pasteurized eggies are boiling, I do my 20 minute morning practice; a combination of movements that liberate stagnant energy and a series of somatic embodiment tracking & inquiry.

From there, like I said every day is different.

Currently I have been poring my love, devotion and creativity into a project called @ris____e, jewelry for alignment.

I listen and adapt to my energy levels and prioritize restoration and rest. Other than that, I make sure I check in with the ones I love, and make space for dropping in. I cultivate time at least once each week to get into nature, and bodies of water. On a daily bases, my showers and oil time is my alone time to fill up my cup and serenade this body that gives me the greatest gift; life. 

We disconnect from our bodies because the pain, hurt, suffering is too big to sit with. Trauma in it’s simplest form means a situation where the individual was not able to process or digest, where the emotional stress overwhelms the system to cope. If the individual was not able to experience emotional regulation, the unprocessed energy gets lodged and stored as tension in the body.

As a Somatic Educator, I create a safe space for body based exploration. Providing the environment to start allowing what was suppressed and deposited, opportunity to start moving. As practitioners, we invite people to return to embodiment, to live life in an attuned state of felt presence. In order for this to happen, the focus is about building safety, so the safety begins relating to the pain, with the aim to develop capacity to feel safe enough to feel, so we are able to have access to the Aliveness life has to offer us.

Titration is the main orientation and lens in which we practice and hold space from. Titration originally derives from a chemistry term where you take two highly reactive substances in test tubes and with a pipet, slowly, slowly, mix them together to create the combined mixture safely. However, if titration wasn’t applied, and these two substances were to mix all at once, poured too quickly, the substances would react and explode. This is the essence of titration when we relate it to trauma. As I mentioned before, trauma is anything too fast, too much, too soon that overwhelms the system to digest. So by working with slowness, breath; we provide the fertile ground for digestion. Training our system to be anchored in feeling safe as we approach the tender areas of our psyche. 

My aim is to create intentional space for women to gather, learn, feel, grow, evolve, empower, connect, experience an established sense of internal safety and heal. To fine-tune the instrument of our bodies and our 5 senses for exquisite sensitivity, so we are able to be in deep fulfillment and intimacy with life, and how it desires to move through our being. That we are able to simply feel who we really are, moment to moment, and bring this into relationship with the world around us - dropping the constructs of who we think we “should” be in order to belong and experience life from a place of connection, authenticity, depth, aliveness and simplicity. 

The way we regulate our nervous systems is through 4 ways; through breath, sound, touch and movement. 

For me, when I get triggered, or experience an adrenaline spike, I place my hands on my body, wherever it feels the most needed, nourishing and genuine. Bring my attention to my breath, and focus on candle breathing (slow, long exhales through pursed lips). Touch and breath are my go to, and if I need and the environment is appropriate, I will stretch; lengthening the body, creating space for breath to reach into the discomfort and bring a wash of relief.

The memories are endless. The one that springs to mind is the cherish moments of being in the back of my mum’s Toyota, driving through the endless valleys of sawah ~ rice paddies. I would lay newspaper on the railing of one of those old school windows that would manually slide from side to side, and stick my head out of the window into buckets of pouring rain. That, and the times spent in Nusa Dua Beach Grill, rolling around on Geger Beach before The Mulia came along and screwed us all over. If you know, you know. 

 

Deep intimacy. I am passionate about making love with life, with people, with my environment, with my journey of becoming.

I wish I get to experience this deep intimacy grow, reaching new depths and sustained flourishing. A connection with life everyday that blooms, for as long as I have breath moving in my body and a soul desiring to evolve.